image credit hereIt's been almost 2 years since I started this blog. That means it's been almost 2 years since HF has been workin' da streets. The other day both HF and myself had a realization at the exact same moment! I don't know what you call that, but there should be an expression for it.
We were on the phone. HF was explaining to me why he wasn't home yet. He was going on and on in detail about what happened and what he was doing and why. Months ago I would've expected nothing less. I mean, one of the biggest issues in a relationship, is people not calling and telling the other person what in sam hill is going on when they are not where they're supposed to be, right? Anyway, if you hadn't already guessed, HF is more of the strong and silent type and I have to squeeze the details out of him.
So, HF is giving me more details than I could ever hope for, then it clicked. I blurted out, "No need to explain. I got it." There was silence on the other end, but no hurt or confusion. HF said, "Really? Cool" And that was that. He got back to work and I went back to
So what I'm saying is we reached one of those glorious steps in LEO life. Don't get me wrong. I am still unsure about many things and always have a million questions for HF. I admit there are certain things that I have been difficult about and have misunderstood in regards to the job (such as HF's sleep schedule, and "do you have to wear your gun everywhere" sort of things), but for the most part everything has been easy for me to accept. But it really felt good to be able to tell HF that he didn't have to explain everything. I also knew that when he had the time, or when he was ready, that he would talk to me or answer any questions I might have. This is also a big deal because it means that I am less likely to ask "why" if were somewhere, say at a movie theater, and he says, "we need to go now". I know he has worried about that with me. But like I said, it clicked. I know I can ask questions later.
I guess that's what I'm trying to say. This thing that clicked is more of an overarching understanding of the lifestyle. All this blabbering to get to the point. Trust. I trust him enough to not have to ask a million questions (until later). I trust him to do the right thing in any given situation. He doesn't have to explain himself to me constantly. I get it. I trust him. At work and at home.
Maybe this all sounds ridiculous, but it felt really good! The next day I asked him if he noticed that he doesn't have to explain so much to me anymore. He said he did notice that. We both nodded with knowing satisfaction. It's those litte milestones sometimes, you know?
What are some of your small (or big) moments like this?